I was reading some of the sweet things u wrote to me and it made me cry knowing they were all a lie
No one seems to care how I feel about what things mean to me. My feeling aren’t important to u to anyone. Yes I’m depressed yes I feel sick and tried of feeling worthless I want u to tell me u love me ad mean it I want to have a sleepover with a friend and not brake up over it or close to it. I don’t want to feel like I jaw to lie to make u happy. I don’t want to lie to u I don’t want to hurt u but u seem to like to hurt me. U tell me in about to loose u showing me again ur the one who will brake up with me and can’t or won’t work things out. U can’t even try to understand where I’m coming from. I know I do wrong things and not think them throw first but I do love u and even if u dint love me I’ll always love u and ull always be my first true love. Where things go from here is all up to u.
Ur the first person when we fight I cry when ur upset I want to try to make u happy. I don’t go out of my way to piss u off. Last night while I lay awake in bed I was thinking, r u done with me because it feels that way sometimes. Do u love me or are u in love with me because there is a big difference. My heart feels like it’s braking so today I’m running away from my problems going to a place far but close to cry my eyes out and get throw this and think about how bad my life would be without u for the simple fact I think I’m loosing u if ur not already gone.
How can I move in with u when I hang out with one of my friends u freak out and tell me not to talk to u till next Friday I need to go to the river and cry my eyes out it helps me every time I know what I’m doing tomorrow :(
Love me for who I am not who u want me to be
It hurts the same it always does but thats ok i guess I’m just happy I know how u really feel now even if u said it out of anger or not it’s still how u feel and I’m glade to know
I really can’t believe this I hang out with one of my friends and u act like it’s a bad thing for one day u leave me for the weekend and I still talk to u plz someone tell me how this is far bc I don’t see it :’(
Sometimes it feels like I can’t take it anymore
